Heal.

well,maybe i am the one who magnify things,
maybe emotion is one of the reason,
maybe tiredness is one of the reason, or maybe hormone? -.-
well,back to subject.
yeah,can't deny that things really happen...but...well...maybe i am the one who magnify things...yeah...me....haizzz......i am incurable =( i will try to mend it.
things seem back to track.
and,thanks, my friends =)

i am fine. wheee =D
jbjbjbjbjbjb....the place i born,i live,i breathe,i sleep,i study,i play,i made friends,i laugh,i bla bla bla... i feel secure here,only here, with my family.
and now, my daily routine is to live with my family, play with my idiot bro *lmao*
i enjoyed it. And enjoying. I could tell these moments are the best,ever. =D
i am satisfied, easily.

my relative,
oh well,i think i really have no energy to fight with my friends.going to wave my white flag -.-

=)

It does.

silence is gold,does it translate it that way? hmmm,i guess,lol.

i shouldn't forget it for any moment and i have been remembered it, anytime,

and this explains why i could only talk freely towards my close friends but not others.

but,well, i am imperfect and forget things sometimes,

honestly,i didn't think that will cause anything before it's out...

but,well, it does at last....

i thought friends should know each other feelings or thoughts, not that deep, but at least just for those basic.

but,well,nope,i think....

sometime,you think what you do just not a matter, but,

it does, actually,

but you just don't know....

and well, maybe i just like to magnify things and make myself stuck in problemsss...

kinda of self-abusing...(okay,now i know why i chose sam, lol )

well, so, just leave me alone for a moment, and so i can think it all over again,

and think a way out, for myself
to get out of those stupid problems which i get for myself.

and well, because maybe it just really hurts,

yeah,it does...

and well,maybe is, because i thought it will be as same as what happened in sec sch...

but, no... things are different, always.

You have it now,but not always.

this reminds me what my chinese teacher in sec sch said, friends in sec life are always the best ever you have.

yeah,indeed,they are always the best i have.

well, i am fine, perfectly fine,

it's just like a small fall while i am walking,

what i need to do, is just stand up and continue walking, *well, no running for a while,but walking slower than before*

and,no tears, because we are not like still 2, 3 years old kids, crying out loud while you fall down...nah nah,it's not going happen,

because, tears are precious and not going to let it drop down that easily.

lol, it's kinda of mood swing this few days, (i did say, grown up isn't a good thing, haha...)

i am not really good in playing with masks. so, just give me some time.

and well, forgive me for not telling the truth *well,not like i am lying, but just didn't say out the real reason XD it's called cover it up,i guess lol*

=)

Seeing you all is far more important than surprise =D

Warning: a long post! u can read it till the end or choose not to read it.
*well,if u stop reading in between,i wouldn't know either* -.-

okay,i will start by now =D
start with the picture then, a late b'day cake, and now oni i realise i didn't make any wish this year!!! what??? i just wasted my 3 wishes which is that precious that you only can do it when it's your birthday??? -.- well,maybe grow older makes you forget that you need to make a wish when your birthday. *i hate growing up*

next,okay,well,i have no comment for this below. -.-
我只能说，再多的挣扎也是没用的，接受吧。 或许我会从中得到快乐。-.-

starbucks after jas n jme went back.Had a girl talk. =)
well,actually is just two girls plus one orang utan,BUAHAHAHA XD

from...them :
well,i wonder is aus really need this? -.- hahaha....


LOL,as i said,i can only accept it -.-
AND, i will definitely bring it to aus =D
maybe,i will treat the monkey as rubbish bin and bla everything out to it when i find no one to talk....hahaha XD

thx ning,no more any monkeys and banana,finally,hahaha -.-

okay,starts my speech now,well,i knew that u guys surprise failed today,LMAO. XD
but,allow me to say that, seeing you all is far far far more important than surprise. =)

have the same feeling and thought after reading ning's card.

well,after one year staying in kl experience,i've learnt many things,realised many things. I could tell that this ten months really made me grown up a lot,far more a lot than what i thought.

haizzz,so,can't denied that, i felt that i became older,omg... -.- *grew up indeed not a good thing* well,this is part of life. Learn to think older but live younger should be the rule. XD

yeah,ning,i totally agreed what u said in the card, though we have friends after we separated, but the feeling isn't the same. Although we can talk,laugh,play,do crazy things with our college friends,but, well,can i say that our frequency just isn't the same? Maybe, with you all, we've friendship for years but with them just months. I just can't spoke to them what's my trouble and things. But with you all, i can just bla bla bla and throw out anything i have. Because you all are just my listeners, for me. You all can know what my feelings are and what my thoughts are. I no need to say it out,and you all just know it automatically. This is the advantage for friends after years XD glad to have you all to be my friends =D

well,maybe i am quite a weird person,i can't talk to anyone easily. Only to the one i trusted and believed. And these are built up through years,not by days, minutes or seconds either... (*well,though sometimes i just love to keep things to myself,hahaha,okaaaaaay,i am weird,i ADMIT that,maybe it's just kind of self-defence,lol and this self-defence is quite too strong wey, yuwen, that's not a good thing wey -.-*

ning: i got prayed for you,no need to scare your result lah,i suppose u do it very well XD

it's a great day with friends =)
honestly, seeing you all is far more important than any surprise.
*And,i don't want to spoil u guys surprise,
i want the surprise by you all to be succeed,
i am trying to.... but you guys knew that i knew it earlier,LMAO......
And,
i won't want to see ning and jme went to lift BY ACCIDENTALLY XD,
i won't want to know that ning will go back jb by ACCIDENTALLY
and,
i also won't want to know that she's just bluff me that she not able to go back jb XD
i won't want to hear jme said she gonna meet me up later BY ACCIDENTALLY
well,allow me to say that,i really won't want to know things that i shouldn't know...LOL
all of this,this and THESE,I get to know BY ACCIDENTALLY, LMAO....
i really won't want to be that smart LMAO,
sometimes i rather i am stupid when i should be, hahaha XD*

A great 18 i have.

=)

im lazy.

yeah,im kinda of lazy to update.
back from pangkor edy.
have fun.yeaaup,salty taste of sea breeze is nice. (ermmm,a bit tooo salty -.-) sunset is great.
how long have i been seeing the sunset? hmmm... i have no idea.
cycling is great,it have been long time for me not to cycling since my bicycle was being stolen
eating is great tooo...eat whenever sitting down by the table in the kitchen,incurable -.-
games were awesome too,killer games at night after whole day exhausting isn't that easy,as i hardly can blink my eyes and kill people. -.- eyes nearly drop out,but no one see my blink,failed -.- at last, no one can catch me,the killer.not that i very pandai,the truth is just no one sense my blink wey. -.-
king game was great too. the pole dance indeed lmao. HAHAHAHA. can't see that our class rep can dance so well wey,omg,should i say that 'the dance impress me'? lol (minako,u should know who am i talking of,haha,no doubt,MY CLASS REP DANCE,AND PS:IS POLE DANCING buahahaha. )
things were great with my college mates.
memory is always the best thing for you to reminisce.
well,my memory is not that bad, so i will remember every single great awesome moment with my friends. =D
as i said,perfect full stop for perfect story. indeed,it is. =D





status now: addicted to vampire diaries -.-
level: very high,scale is not gonna be any useful. -.-
comment: omgosh,stephen and damon are so so so hot -.- (i guess that's the effect of watching too much vampire diaries.but anyway,it's TRUE. haha. ) but,damon is so demon,hmm,i not that like him. but,well,the act that he saved his bro impress me. (aww,STOP,i scare i can't stop talking it.and the post will become a 1000 words thesis all about vampire diaries -.- ) okay,we skip to the female part,elena,she is so so so pretty,i could tell she is the most prettiest in the whole drama though all of the characters inside are all pretty and hot. But,she is just like a doll. Is like perfect.And you won't get tired of just watching her even though i am a girl,hehe.

oops, my comment have been too long -.- hehe.
well,i will get older by another 45mins? hmm....
honestly,have no any excitement....this date for the past few years is really bad for me. (well,not last year,i have a nice one last year. =) ) im scare.Just wish a peaceful one will do.please don't make me have any phobia for getting to 16 of nov in the future.i love this date.i don't wish to have to hate it. -.- it sounds seriously,do i?haha.well,im fine.And another well again, this year is a bit different as my mom remember it at last.Kinda of touching,haha.

should continue watching my elena and stephen,buahaha.

and yeah,time for holiday. happy holidays,friend. (except ning and minako,kesianya,tsk tsk.XD)

=)

Self abuse course has been ended officially XD

Everything is over now...woohooo~~~ XD
*can fly edy...HAHAHA LOL*
*turn turn turn*

well, it's time back to reality ...
oh man,i am worrying for my result now,oh please,don't be too un-see-able,or else....or else.... i also don't know what to do -.- ...
anyway,whatever it is,all have been done -.-
my friend say: so now we should pray,examiner eye sakit,mark all correctly XD lol

aww,going to go back jb next week bcs got pangkor trip this friday, the last trip with my college friends. For the past 10 months living here,i could tell,in overall, my life is quite good, without those days missing home -.- (this is incurable...) walking to subang parade for dinner, watching horror movie n shouting *lmao*, watching scenery from my window while studying, etc etc...and i think i will miss snowflake here -.-

Things are going to end. And it's time to clean my stuff....omg,i wonder where should i start first? 有种心有余而力不足的感觉.... -.-

looking forward for trip, let's get crazy and also the craziest for the first and last time.and this will be the perfect full stop for the perfect story.

=)